Today

Today I arrived at my place and felt like it was home again,
without having your ghost peeking at me from every corner.
I looked at the places you used to sit and eat your dinner with me,
without feeling like my heart was ripped out.
I looked at the bed where you used to sleep beside me,
without crying like a little girl who lost her precious doll.
I touched the things you gave me,
without feeling lost.

I thought it would be more difficult letting you go,
although it took longer than usual.
I thought that this pain would never end,
although it actually did.
I thought I would never smile again,
although I’ve been smiling the last couple of weeks.

Today I washed the clothes you left behind,
it doesn’t longer matter if they smell like you or not.
Some days ago I used the dress you bought me,
it doesn’t longer remind me of you and what we had.
Today I saw my favourite picture that I took of you,
it doesn’t longer show me a fantastic good-looking man.

I went from strong to the weakest I’ve ever been.
You pulled me back to my childhood depression,
where I thought I would never go again.
Today I went from weak to the strongest that I’ve probably ever been.

Thank you for opening my eyes to what life really is about.
It sure wasn’t about you.
I turn my head in the other direction,
because after all, you were just a boy,
and not the man I thought you were.

Home, home from Paris.

About wictorianart

Freelance artist and photographer based in Oslo, Norway. Mainly doing character design, concept art, illustration and wedding photography.
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One Response to Today

  1. Liv Elin says:

    Det finns ikkje ord førr å beskrive kort stolt æ e over at du e den personen du e, kor gla æ blir over å lese dette, kor lett æ føle mæ inni mæ førdi æ skjønne at du har tadd enda et sjumilssteg framover :) du fantastiske menneske æ e så gla i dæ! <3

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